De Psycho Journey

1st day of New Semester

2011-05-16T04:37:00.000-07:00

Woohoo..

Today's the 1st day of new semester.. my final two semester.. hehe..

Although I feel very tired after working as an intern at my uni but I gained a lot of knowledge today.

I am very happy too because the cakes I bought for my two lovely lecturers like it. Wow.. This is the 1st time I didn't buy something which is not suit other's choice.. haha.. Happy!!!

Besides, while doing the cold calling for the companies.. I managed to call the line for both of the electronic companies which had been pending for the past few weeks.. haha.. how lucky am I?? It's a good start..

During a lunch meeting with my team, I found out something scary and disgusting.. My favorite fast foods, both M & K is not using the ingredient that I thought. OMG.. I have to start craving for such food today onwards.. It's for my own health too.. Oh no.. I guess you will not want to hear this...

I enjoy the working environment in my current team.. relaxing and flexible.. I can work off site if I want to.. I can do anything I want.. It made me feel that I am being appreciated and they trust my work. How nice if my future employer will be like that.. haha.. We will look into this in future..

I have gain alot of knowledge through this internship and my way in doing my Thesis.. Although sometimes there are some unreasonable event happened.. I always trust it'll be solved.. So do not panic and stay calm to face the problem.. I am very thankful to both of my supervisors for supervising me throughout the process.. Thank you.

Oh ya.. Today is Teacher's Day, as an ex teacher, I am quite upset because none of my students wished me.. It's ok.. haha.. I still feel happy because my lecturers and teachers and happy for the wishes I brought for them.. hehe..

Time to shower.. Must not exceed a certain limit of time.. It's a way to train me not to take my shower very late.. It's all his plan.. He is wonderful.. He will be be the one whom I want to spend my whole life together with.. haha.. TS, I Love You..

Look forward for tomorrow's research project. Go Go gambate pika!!

**blink blink**

Countdown on my graduation journey

2011-05-14T02:49:00.000-07:00

Few more months then I'll be going out from this pampered world- my house & Uni life.

I am looking forward for that day to come. However, all of my friends who started working seems do not like the working lifestyle. I guess maybe they do not find the job they loved?? Or in real working world, it is not as sweet as the days at home and Uni life? In my own opinion, I think it is depends how you perceived the job and the way you treat yourself in the job position. I must fully occupied my remaining 216 days with soft skills and experiences in working in the filed I am interested. Gambate pika!

Blogging is not my cup of tea. But I do feel that sometimes I need a space for me to voice out my opinion. Although I do not wished this piece of information read by the people I knew.. but I can't escape from that. Anyway, I ain't that famous till some bloggers who have thousands of viewing in a day. I feel secure in some way. Maybe at the other end of the world. I might meet someone who share the same thoughts with me. YOU can leave me a comment on my blog. Most welcome for those who wanted to leave a comment. For me, it is part of my life. I am growing everyday. I need guidance or opinions from others. So do you?? Agree?

I have decided, I will archive the following 216 by updating my blog daily? weekly? monthly? depends on my flexibility.

Look forward? Stay tune..

Have a great day everyone.

Regards,

cute pika

Jz A Post..

2009-11-07T04:53:00.001-08:00

WOW.. long time din blog..

well, i'm not a regular blogger.. altho.. i wished to blog always.. but.. lots of workload in hand till i no time to blog.. (actually it's jz an excuse for my laziness)

today i view my fren's blog. Wow.. in two months time.. lots of things happened.. and i found out that her mom fall down.. erm.. wat came into my head that moment is.. i want to pay her mummy a visit.. but.. dunno leh.. feel weird.. cos.. mayb i m still not that closed with them.. but.. i really feel like goin 2 pay her a visit.. cos during my frens still here.. auntie did treat me well too.. mayb tmr buy some fruits and pay her a visit.. hopefully it wun give her any troubles..

i viewed my sis's blog too.. well, i really think that my sis is more mature than me.. in some case.. from wat she wrote on her blog.. i can c that she is really facing lots of problems that she can't share wif any of us.. so.. she prefer 2 blog on net n express out her feeling..

as i've learnt from the human personality course.. according to Adler's Birth Order, the youngest child is always the pet of the family.. He/She always aim for high achivements.. but..not my sister.. i think she did not want high achievement cos she really feel very tired of being compared with her outstanding sibling (except me). She is more in oppsosite side of the youngest child's personality: the helplessness and dependency type.. her attitudes really give me a sense of that.. haiz..

ytd, a psychiatric in US Army shot 13 armies.. the 1st thing that crossed in my mind is.. will psychology have a bright future den?? will the company do not want to hire me cos i m a psychology degree holder? haha.. think to much again.. my dad n mom more over, they asked me to stop this course as they dun want me to be in the mental hospital 1 days.. *piu**swt..

i've sick for 3 days.. but now recovered.. in that 3 days.. headache, vomit, stomach pain, etc.. u name it.. i got it.. haiz.. i did not eat well that 3 days too.. cos.. no appetite.. the reasons i tot of y will i fall sick:

1. stress

2. sad

3. stand too much and no air circulation during experiment

4. did not have lunch

5. going to sick

at the end, i still dunno y m i sick.. shudb a combinations of the reasons that i can think of.. lol..

recently, my life is so peaceful.. cos TS did not really chat much with me.. mayb cos last month i did hang his call once den he do not want to bother abt me.. even i sick.. he dun even.. haiz.. nvm.. it's over.. i do not keep it in heart..

i know that recently TS is very bz wif his assignments and finals.. he stay till the wee hour to study at Uni.. got 1 night, i can't get him 2 answer my call, i tot wat had happened to him as it's already midnight 1:30am.. by that time he shud have b home.. but.. i din get any msg or cal from him.. so i keep on calling.. till...1:45 oni he take up the cal n said he silent his fon.. i know i shud x blame him.. but i really very scared that moment.. once he pick up the cal.. i m so thankful to the god that he's safely arrived home.. but.. he mayb dunno how worried i m.. nvm.. he's jz bz wif his stuff till he oso blur blur..

on 1 lecture when the lecturer sharing her story wif us.. she mentioned that, we need to bear with your lover no matter how he/she behave.. 2 ppl live tgt must have TOLERANCE.. i once forgot this word and tot of breaking up cos some small issues.. but.. after that lecture.. i tot of the word again and i make the step 2 tolerate.. i have really forgot this word.. as i myself oso bz wif my heavy workloads.. thanks to my leacturer who shares her story wif me.. and... it made me realized that i shud have b more tolerate to TS..

okie.. time for assignments...

Jiayou pika!! Jiayou TS!!

一個人生活&兩個人生活

2009-09-21T23:41:00.001-07:00

一個人生活&兩個人生活 = 兩個自由的人因愛結合而產生的所謂『摩擦』

星期日，一覺睡到下午2 點還不願起床，我在旁邊叫喚他。
「起床了好不好？我們出去走走，去吃東西。」N遍之後，他仍在睡。
我下樓去，走到公園時，打了他手機，我想，這下，他不得不起床了吧？
響了好幾聲，他終於接了電話，只是他告訴我的是：「妳讓我過我自己想過的生活好不好？」

突然間，我不知該如何回應，倖倖然掛上電話後，一個人坐在公園裡，有點茫然有點不知所措，那麼我自己的生活又是什麼呢？
一個人的時候過自己的生活，兩個人的時候也各自過生活？？
肚子餓了是唯一明確的方向，我漫步到肯德雞，點了餐，端了餐盤往樓上走，三三兩兩的人群，小孩的吵鬧聲在我耳邊沸騰著，我沒有感覺到煩燥，反而覺得這種人氣很好，我安靜的吃我的炸雞看我的報紙，四週喧嚷的小孩聲壓過了我心裡悲傷的低鳴聲，近日來，就情緒上來說，我並不太快樂，我需要注入一些快樂的聲音在我的心房。

一個小時後，我離開肯德基並外帶了一份餐，在往回家路上走著時，我重新思考著過自己生活的事情，我可以當作我是一個人生活，一個吃飽一個人散步一個人回家去嗎？？

我不會，也不行，我可以一個人吃飯、一個人散步，可是我不會忘了要買一份食物給在家裡的家人，一個人的生活裡其實包含了兩個人。
婚姻裡，有一個很難的部份就是，你不明白什麼時候該一個人，什麼時候又該兩個人？
而女人卻會自然而然的照料跟妳一起生活的人，也許妳照顧不了他的心情，可是妳會顧及他的溫飽。
想著想著，就走到了家門口，我站在門口，有鑰匙卻沒有開門，我按了門鈴，他開了門....
「先生，請問你有沒有叫肯德基外帶全家餐？」我站在門口對他說。
他對我笑而不答。「沒有嗎？我送錯了啊？？」我笑。
他把東西接過手，牽著我的手進了家門。

晚上，他居然帶我去逛了夜市耶，這是一件非常難得的事，因為他超討厭逛夜市，而且，他很有耐心陪我一條一條的逛著，臉上沒有一絲不耐煩。
我想，他明白這是 ------我一個人生活時愛做的事，二個人生活時也希望可以做的事。

如果相遇，你會感到相知，那麼，有一種習慣 ─叫做陪伴。

如果陪伴，你會感到珍惜，那麼，有一種甜蜜 ─叫做存在。
如果存在，你會感到壓力，那麼，有一種善良 ─叫做 離開。
如果離開，你會感到輕鬆，那麼，有一種勇敢 ─ 叫做放棄。

忙的時候，想要休息；渡假的時候，想到未來。
窮的時候，渴望富有；生活安逸了，怕幸福不能長久。
決定的時候，擔心結果不如預期；
看明白了，後悔當初沒有下定決心
不屬於自己的，常常心存慾望；
握在手裡了，又懷念未擁有前的輕鬆
「生命若不是現在，那是何時？」

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珍惜現在的友誼,珍惜你所愛的人.因為，很可能在下一秒鐘這些都將不復存，不要只留下自己為沒有珍惜過嘆息，為沒有珍惜過而生自己的氣.因為那為時已晚....

~~~Pauline Chia ~~~

I find this piece of words tell out how I feel recently.. Maybe we should really know what we want and.. What both of us want in order to start a new relationship.. but of cos.. you can't find out until u start a relationship.. So, I'll look forward for the day where TS will say,"I am willing to be with you forever"....................

A 'sui' (aka bad) day :(

2009-08-14T05:16:00.000-07:00

WaT a StUpId DaY tOdAy..

I have bank in my resource fees for 2nd year.. n yet.. When i checked my school account.. stated there that i haven settle wif the payment.. make me so angry and anxious.. haiz.. i tot straight away bank in den need not have ay follow up on tat.. WHO KNOWS!!!! i stil need to go 2 the bursary to collect my receipt only consider i already banked in the money!!! haiz.. den what for i bank in the money leh? i might as well straight away pay cash for that.. so gek si me..

This is not that worse.. my hp has expired and i can't make any call out.. so i need to call to HELP to double confirm with this.. i use skol's public phone.. n it cheated my money!!! sob sob.. altho just a 50 cents but.. it means alot to me nowadays as i dun really have much money for my daily expenses.. haiz.. suai la... stupid fon.. eat my money!!!!!

After made the call, i went into the toilet.. n i have forgotten that the 1st basin is spoilt.. i on the tap n the water split all over my clothes.. STUPID!!! why all this stupid stuff happened to me continuously? gek si me la...

After that, i go to class.. my children are having exam this week.. it's their last paper during my period.. after i've collected the exam papers.. i ask them to pass up their workbook as the assistant headmaster(AH) need to check their works.. wen they passed up.. oni i realised that i have 7 pages did not mark.. OMG.. headache.. i ask them to quickly hand in so that i can mark n hand it to the AH.. luckily i still manage to finish mark their works.. but.. AH said have to wait all passed up oni check.. SWT... i rushing so hard to let her check.. who knows...

4 students did not bring.. so have to wait Monday they pass up, finish my marking only send to AH... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... why la.. why this happen to me?

Next.. one of my student told me that she has lost her electronic dictionary.. she put it in the drawer before recess.. haiz.. how am i going to find in the very last 5 minutes? i asked my monitors to help out.. but they did not get any... haiz.. i have warm that girl not to bring expensive stuff to skol.. she dun listen.. wat can i do? I also ask her to keep her own properties properly.. haiz.. i trust my children will not take.. but.. where has it been? OMG... why this happen 2 me again? i've reported to AH.. her comment is: 'children nowadays are very smart, after they steal, they'll not put into their bag. they'll hide it somewhere and go to get it after class. quite make sense oso.. how come i never tot of that? OMG.. what have the movies teach them? how come nowadays the children's m ind so complicated? haiz..

Okie la.. i think i enuf 'sui' this 2 days.. 2days before met accident.. luckily is ok.. not pretty much hurt.. den today happen all these... haiz..

Wish tmr will be a better day la.. got dinner at shangarila hotel.. i did not buy any dress.. just wear the 1 i wore b4..

okie.. i need 2 rest le.. tmr got tuition..shhuuu shhuuu all the 'sui qi'.. night ^^

:( sui day for pika, aLiCe..

Learn to treat things happen around as they r normal ^^

2009-07-25T20:25:00.000-07:00

raining early in the morning..

so mood oso x tat good lo.. lolz.. emo..

get up aroung 6:45am.. tot 1 2 help dad fill in medicine.. who knows.. he already go out le.. hav 2 cal him 2 come bec take the medicine.. haiz.. my careless.. shud keep tat ytd.. but.. was too tired le.. after fetch sis from her skol, once reach home, i straight away sleep le..

erm.. aft tat, teach tuition til 10:45am..

haiz.. need 2 prepare exam papers.. the previous 1 that i have donw have totally rejected by the teacher who r checking it.. sob.. need 2 re-do all over again.. nvm la.. i oso dun wish my kids fail it.. lol.. so will make it easier than the rejected version..

dunno y heart feel weird weird de.. like sth blocking.. seems like lots of problem that i can't solve..

1. study - money

2. family

3. friendship

4. relationship - so far so good ^^

5. period.. coming soon

hmph.. luckily the 1st problem is already settle half way. thanks for those who lending me a hand for that... thanks yc ^^ i truly appreciate wat u have done to me.. thank you..

one of my fren gave me a formula 2 summarise my feeling:

period + moon gravity + emotion..... = bad mood

he said: if minus out the "emotion" then u will be happy as usual again.

mayb i really think too much as wat ts said.. haiz.. but.. human being will think non-stop.. unless the second he/she died..

isn't it true? i dunno..

went to celebrate my cousin's 21st burfday ytd.. she got lots of presents.. so envy her.. haha.. cos i also love receiving presents instead of MONEY.. i always got money instead of presents.. so.. feel that if i receive so mnay presents.. i'll surely b very happy... n headache too.. cos dunno wer shud i put those presents.. i have few boxes of present that gave by my students and friends last time.. haha.. but.. i stil love to receive presents.. i guess is normal for every1.. psychologically.. am i right?

burfday, wedding, etc is an event that gather ppl.. v can meet out long lost friends.. relatives that only met once a year ( during CNY) lol.. etc.. ytd one of my relative ask me.. when is my turn.. haha.. i was shocked wif her words.. cos.. at 1st i tot she asked wen is my turn 2 get married.. haha.. she asked when i'll celebrate my 21st... lolz.. erm.. i din celebrate la actually.. jz have dinner with my family. I oso planned to celebrate b4.. but.. due to lots of circumstaces, i didn't do so.. erm.. quite sad oso.. but.. nvm la.. over le.. i m now 22.. so.. no matter got celebrate or not.. life stil hav 2 go on.. lolz.. no big deal!!

my anniversary wif ts'll coming soon.. 23 more days to go.. as he's starting his uni life soon, i guess we'll x celebrate it so soon.. anyway, that hour will b our bz hour.. so.. can't go 2 find each others so soon.. i guess.. unless.. haha.. x unless.. shud b lidat la..

erm.. okie la.. start 2 do my work la.. go go gambate!!

^^ hav a nice day everyone!!

unusual day..

2009-07-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

Dear blog..

erm.. recently feel like writing out my feeling.. so.. i write lo...

haiz.. got a feel n weird feeling.. realised that some1 din really 1 2 talk 2 me.. dunno y.. haiz.. n dunno how 2 find out.. so.. jz wait lo.. haiz.. sad case..

darling is moving 2 new room.. abu neh neh landlord.. hopefully this 3 years everthing will b fine la.. cos.. seriously.. i dun trust indian.. mayb phorbia.. but since my darlnig said the landlord is nice.. so.. i have nth 2 say oso la.. cos he has already very fan for this.. n y et.. i can't help out anything.. haiz.. wat a useless gf i m .. haiz..

new sem will b my 2nd year le.. that's when the HGPA will b count.. haiz.. so worry la.. din get 1st class oso no confident to get 2nd upper.. cos the standard is kinda high in HELP.. for my level la.. but.. i'll try my best to do my best!!! jiayou ba.. oso .. jiayou ba my darling.. wish u all the best in ur new environment!!!

erm.. was chatting wif my ex colleague.. he said.. if according to lunar calendar, gal is more emo during full moon.. err.. seriously this was my 1st time heard.. but.. mayb lo.. haha.. mayb period cuming soon oso la.. lol.. cos pimples r out le.. lolz.. make sense? swt.. wat m i toking abt? haha..

hehe.. dunno darling gto read my blog or not leh? guess dun hav la.. cos i oso send him mail everyday.. like blog oso.. haha.. but.. i really wish he got read sometimes.. sometimes oso dun wish he read.. wen i m really emo n got talk abt his bads :p haha.. seldom la.. mayb got la.. dun angry oh if u saw this, ts..

well well well... time 2 prepare exam paper la.. fast fast fin n dun need 2 bother abt it anymore la.. wat la.. as a replacement teacher oso need 2 prepare exam paper.. haiz.. but.. haha.. working here is more relax than the previous skol.. cos.. i dun need 2 bring bac book to mark.. lolz.. time more free.. lol.. too bad.. wen think of skol reopen need 2 skip 2 weeks class for teach.. haiz.. feel so bad.. but wat 2 do? need 2 earn money for my next sem's tuition fees.. haiz.. hopefully can catch up la.. wif all my fren's help.. headache.. stil dunno how much i'll get for my salary.. haiz.. so cham...

okie la.. to be continue next time..

bye bye..

Life is hard.. but... stil have to go on..

2009-07-19T07:03:00.000-07:00

suddenly feel like posting something on my blog...

i wonder why on earth the people need to suffer so hard to live on..

till now.. i haven get an exact answer cause i m stil suffering from something which is not under my control..

haiz.. wat a pitiful life.. i wish i could do my best to make my life more live more lively and cheerish with the efforts i have put in..

erm.. i realised that i oni blog all my unhappy moments... i seldom blog on my happy life..

mayb i thinki blog is one of the way for me to release my stress and unhappiness.. wel, i do hav happy events goin on my life...

i was sick for few days.. tot myself goin to die soon cos.. H1N1.. but... i m not having tat.. y m i so happy abt getting ill? haha.. cos it's the oni way that i can slim down.. i dunno y n how can i slim down besides that.. i've tried to exercise but seems the effect is not tat clearly seen.. however, wen ni sick for few days, i can c myself slim down very fast.. ehem... lolz.. of cos after increase weight oso faster than b4.. lol.. hopefully this time i can control myself abit.. cos i dun wish 2 disappoint some1 who always meet me but did realised that i have pun in effort to slim down.. how sad is this case u know..

i was thinking shud i join the community services this time cos i feel myself din give much commitment to my group as i m working and the timing is not right for me to meet them up and help out in any activities.. haiz... if i join.. i feel bad.. cos din help out much stil can join.. if i din join.. i oso feel bad cos my leader has work out so many things for me.. din blame me din help out.. give me chances to go.. erm.. dunno la.. i oso dunno wat shud i do?

1 of my fren did propose a pose for me in a club.. i hav reject it due to i scared i can't give much commitment for that.. as usual.. i'll have tons of excuses when activities are on.. therefore, i dun feel like i can take up the responsibility to do the best for the pose that are proposed by my fren.. so.. reject and b a volunteer is the best choice i can think of.. it wouldn't hurt me or others..

my relationship.. ermm.. seems like normal.. stable.. n.. happy.. altho i cant help much in his life.. but.. sooner.. i wish i can do sth for him.. at least he can feels that how much i love him.. den tat's enuf..

well, as i said in my title.. life is hard.. but... i still have to go on... this is LIFE..

night ^^

Day by day, Week by week, Month by month, Year by year

2009-06-11T10:34:00.000-07:00

Dear blog...

It has been a long time i din update you.. So sorry for the delay...

well, abt my title.. day by day... week by week.. month by month.. year by year..

as time goes by... many thing has changed.. people have change.. enviroment has change.. etc.

Health for me is very important now as i do not wish any of my loves one suffer from the illness devil. It's suffering looking them hav to take a huge quantities of medicine n suffer the pain..

haiz.. as for the one who not beside me.. i wish he can take good care of himself.. do not get hurt always..

Msg for myself : Must take good care cos lots of ppl waiting for me to take care of.. i kenot fall sick or ill...

this year burfday is a great surprise to me..

1st ly, i got a big delivery from Teck Seng.. He come to visit me and pass me the present on the exact day. I feel so hapiness to have him celebrate with me ^^

2nd ly, i got nice presents from TS, hanying, my tuition kids and my gang.. they are owesome to me.. altho some of them are for decoration.. lol..

3rd, got extra 10cent from my dad.. lol..

well, actually i dun mind dun hav any present.. ( altho i wished to have presents la..) as long as all my love 1 happy and healthy.. i'll be happy le

time to bed!!

to be continue............

sad case

2009-03-07T15:09:00.000-08:00

ytd was a bad day for me...

i feel very reckless of being in a gang that keep secret between one another. i tot 1 gang should b open and share tgt. these symtoms i have realised since the begining of the semester, i feel kinda sad for the changes in between my gang.

i really kenot stand for those who do not responsible to themselve n others. i feel suffer having such ppl in a group. the last semester every1 was fine and can cope with each other well, after a period of time, i found out that every1 is not like was i tot. i really cant understand n intepret their mind, therefore i choose to give up n dun k anymore abt tat.

beside having an irresponsible person in my group, i oso found out that some1 who are like commanding others. the some1 oni think that wat has been done is correct n reject others suggestion or even dun even discuss with others. as a group, i think others also realise this, jz tat cos v r frenz, therefore, v don't want to point out tat.. so that v can maintain the relationship..

some1 told me that our gang from a big group had gone into a pair up group.. i do feel it since the begining of the semester. well, the feeling of being paired up is not good as from the begining, i really think that my group wil last til i graduate, i have 2 change my mindset on tat now..

i jz dunno what's wrong wif my gang, i can feel that everythingis different now and our freindship seems goin to burst out in a seconds. i m very apprecitate of having a group of frens but now i really dunno wat can i say abt it.

mayb it's my prob as i always think that the prob is on me... but.. this time i do feel tat there are sth misunderstanding flow in between my gang and no1 point it out.

well, i think i m gonna stop here or else my tears will flow like a tap..

all the best to every1 in ur final!!

hoping tat there is a solution to solve this..

New Year New Start..

2009-01-01T01:04:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Well, at the begining i was very happy with this new year because of a new start. I also feel sad of my 2 family member, eldest brother and his. Both of them make me feel that I am not part of the Chua's family. Nevermind, I'll not mind what they said as all are non-sense. They thought they are god and can control everything, maybe it's useful for other people but NOT me.. Definately.. What they had did recently make me disagree with them. Since our family added in one more new member, although it is a good thing but I do feel many changes has happened.. The new member like trying to rule in this home... Although she has the power to do so because this are their house. They must be wished that they can have their own place, without ME... They even trust other people more than trusting me.. I'm totally disappointed with them.. Nevermind.. I tell myself that I will study hard for this 3 years.. Then I'll give my parents and sister a warmer home. And not to be left out, my boyfriend, Teckseng who had been supporting me these 3 years. Ok. Stop all the unhappiness here.

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A brand new year with a brand new wish...

I wish that I can fulfill all the dreams that I wished this year... esp, my study, parents' health, my relationship, etc.

Am I too greedy?

That's what I wished always...

hehe..

Studying psychology isn't hard but it isn't easy too...

I believed that with determination, all my dreams can come true!!!

looking forward for next week as time to study again..

gambate Alice!! You can do it!! So do all who have a dream.. wishing u all dreams come true!!!

H.A.P.P.Y. 2009 Y.E.A.R.

Final finally final...

2008-12-15T06:59:00.000-08:00

It's the final day for my final exams!!

Hurray!!!

Throughout this final, there are many incidents happened.

Daddy emitted into hospital due to heart attack last 2 weeks. I can say that my study hours spent most in hospital because I need to accompany him there.

It was a tremendous events in Chua's family. Nevermind!! Everything is fine now!! Daddy is recovering!! Hurray!!!

As for my final exam, I only wish that I will not fail any of the subject because once I failed I will not able to get the PTPTN loan and will not able to continue my study in HELP. Wishing that I can pass this obstacles.

okie.. time to bed.. to be continue..

my feeling..

2008-11-14T02:37:00.000-08:00

recently having a packed schedule til i feel reckless...

since i joined the psy program in HELP, i've been very happening everyday..

happening = the flow of money is as fast as the tap.

uni life is really very interesting and i'll definately fully make sure of theis opportunity.

well, jz feel that my gang is among the best frens i can get in HELP. they all are very playful and nice. they have been very caring to each other.

since i was the oldest in the group, they do not treat me like old ppl.. haha.. thanks my gang!!thanks for not letting me feel myself being left out..

assignmemnts, presentation, journals is part of the life of a uni student. as my english is poor, it's kinda hard for me to do those work.. i have to specially thanks to my two coursemate, kaijia and hanying for spending their precious time to help me check on my grammar on my every assignments. altho they have done they work in the midnight but they still willing 2 stay awake to help me check my work.. i truly appreciate what they did to me.. i have never think of frenz can be lidat..

well, i wish that all of us can graduate with flying colours in 2011.. All the best everyone!!

Cheerio!!

:) cute pika,alice

My Mission Statement =S

2008-11-02T02:53:00.000-08:00

Today’s speaker is Mr. Eric. I miss Pei Li because, every time, she will make me more energetic during her lectures although it is early in the morning. Well, other lecturers like Mr. Eric and Mr. Kumar also have their own teaching method. However, I personally prefer Pei Li’s teaching method though. The very first sentence that Pei Li would say, “Give a high five to your friends and said you are awesome” gives me the motivation for the day. I have always loved this class among my other subjects because this lecture seems to give me a sense of relaxation, nevertheless providing me a clearer vision on myself so as to further consider my future career.

We were asked to create our own personal mission statement for the class today. There were six steps to do in order to prepare that of the mission statement. I have had three missions at this point. The first mission is I want to let peace prevail on earth with all the energy I have. The second mission is I would love to share my love with the children around the globe. And last but not least, I would like to entertain and bring joy to tourists so as to let them hold a certain degree of trust upon me. These three missions seem simple and easy but it did take me a hard time to think of them. The happiest thing is that from here I can find out the pathway that I am going to take up in establishing my future career. Thus, I would love to be a teacher or a tour guide.

As what Covey said, “I will live each day with courage and a belief in myself and others” and “I will help others as best I can and will thank those who help me along the way”. I totally agree with what he said because I think that everyone in this world is full of emotions. They can feel that those who helped them before and will feel thankful for the one who lent out their helping hand. Therefore, in order to be one person who is willing to help out without asking anything in return is not impossible. As long as we have set the mission statement and all we need to do is just follow that and follow our heart will do.

Besides talking on lecture, I also went for individual counselling. It also made me understand and make my mind think clearer on what am I going to do for my three years in order to pursue my career in future. I will continue go for the counselling not because of the bonus point but for myself to know more about my own strengths and weaknesses; hence try to change them and become a better person in life.

This week is Career Awareness Campaign week and a number of talks will be held in different places. I will take this opportunity to go for these talks to improve myself and get to know these workplaces better. Moreover, I am also going for Peer Support Group (PSG) Search-In Camp from Friday till Sunday this very week. I wish to get to know myself better and know what I want to do in order to strike my goal. Looking forward to that camp. All said, I must make sure I’ll be discipline enough in order to achieve goals through my career in the future. Keep it up, Alice! Do not get upset easily and always be optimistic because, “whenever there is a will, there is a way”.

A lecture that make me know myself better..

2008-11-01T23:12:00.000-07:00

Today’s speaker is Mr. Kumar Mahalingam. He talks about different kind of career paths. He also introduces to us an author named Corey who discovers the six factors in career making decision. In the six factors given, I can say that throughout the activities that Mr. Kumar asked us to do make me understand myself deeper.

I find it that this lecture gives myself a vivid view on my own personality. I get motivations from the activities. I also know that what attitude should I have in order to drive to the successful goal. The abilities provided will also drive us to a successful person in my own career. We also must have interests, values and self-concept for choosing the career. These factors will drive us to the right career in future.

I’ve tried to log in into the website, O*Net, given by Mr. Kumar for more information on which career I’m suitable with. In order to get the details, I use the Holland’s R.I.A.S.E.C. that provide me three character code to search for occupation that suit my code. I get the code from the Vienna Test I did last month. My code is SCE, which stated that I could be an employment interviewer, education administrator, counsellor etc. This gives myself a much more clearer idea which career I’m most suitable to fit into.

In order to let myself get to my goal, I must start planning what should I do to let I get one step closer to my goal. I’ve started to make a timetable so that I’ll make sure my time was fully spent in useful work. I cannot waste any single minutes because this will delay my drive to successful career goal.

A special guest in my class..

2008-11-01T23:11:00.000-07:00

Today before our class ends, there is a special guest invited by Pei Li to give speech for us. She is Ms Katherine (sorry if I had spell wrongly her name), who is now pursuing her Master in Counseling in HELP University College. She is a person with high motivation. I did learn a lot from her today. She do believed that ‘Practice Makes Perfect’, so do I. I think that everything must be practice for a few times only we will get the result we wish to get. As she’s an elephant-look man, she do not mind on her outer appearance and still willing to share her experiences on charity and life with us. I think that she is a very brave person. She manages to face lots of obstacles by herself. She’s so cool! If I was she, I do not think that I have that braveness to face the crowd, even though with an ordinary appearance. I love the song ‘My Peace’ that sang by her, it make my heart so calm and peace, my members and I even follow her to sing along. This is so cool, she’s even cooler than Malaysia Idol. She has the talent in singing and has a good voice. I feel embarrass if I were to compare with her. I myself am more fortunate than her. Therefore, I must study hard for my better future. Thanks for Pei Li for bringing her into our class.

Every time after the class, I’ll go for the 10,24,7 rules. Tonight I do the same thing, just review what had been learned in class. In order to strive my goal, I must explore my own aptitudes and skills so that I know myself better and from there I would have set my goal clearer and be more systematic. Besides that, I also go through the 127 lists that had been accomplished by John Goddard. He is one of the famous adventures and motivational speaker. By today, he had already accomplished more than 500 lists of experiences during his lifetime. He’s so cool! He did set his goal and make his goals come true. That is the greatest part of him. He did accomplish the entire goal that he had set. Very a few of us can do so because we always take things for granted and never be self-discipline like John.

We were asked to fill in our dream list after a few activities on and we were asked to share our list with our friends. My dream lists were quite unrealistic sometimes, but it’s good to have dreams than none. Not all of us can have our dreams come true, but I do believe that if we are well organized, all of our dreams can be come true one by one as time goes by. I like the sayings that Pei Li mentioned during the class, “to dare is to do, to fear is o fail.”. Therefore, I truly believe that if we do not take the first step, it’s very hard for us to proceed our life to the successful pathway. So, from tonight onward, I want to turn into a new leaf, make myself think of what is my dream lists and what I can be accomplish by the time being. I must being honest to myself, not only day dreaming but must do things practically. My first dream list is I wish that I can understand all the lecturer’s teaching and score well in any of the examinations. Looking forward to see my first dream comes true.

My new lifestyle is going to begin...

2008-11-01T23:09:00.001-07:00

I am quite surprised that Pei Li did not turned up in the class today. Today is Mr. Eric who conducts the lecture. What he taught today was about “Values”. Well, it is a very common topic nowadays but not much of people will realize this and look into it seriously. I can say that even myself also did not really think deeply what values do I have in my life. This made me think of my own values in life. Sometimes, due to my values, although I think that something is not right, yet I still continue to hold on to them because of my own over-excessive vanity. Umm… This sounds very sad right? But that is what is happening in the world now. Even in cooperate companies, they themselves do not put values as their first priority because many of them think that it is not necessary to practice that. This eventually leads to all sorts of crime cases and likewise.

Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.

~ Malcolm S. Forbes ~

In life, people are always undervaluing themselves. They thought they are no one in this world. I do think that everyone has his or her own values. It is only whether they want to practice it or not. So, why don’t we just practice or do whatever we think which is good and correct in life. We do not need to undervalue ourselves as we all do have our own value.

After this lecture, I was so worried and anxious. Today is the day that I’ll know whether I’ll get the PTPTN loan or not. I’m so anxious about the result as this will decide my financial support in taking up this course. My heart was breathing deeply. Once I click on my ID and password, it shows that my application had been approved. This is so cool. I’m so happy because finally I got what I want. I’ve been worrying this for the past few months since I decided to start my course. I’m afraid that I’ll have to stop half way of my study due to financial problem. Yeah!! I can see the rainbow now!!

It’s Wednesday morning, after Dr Hera’s lecture, I went to the library while waiting for the time to pass. I’ve made an appointment with the counselor to analyze my Vienna Test report. The counselor that do analyze for me is Ms Chan. She is a nice person to chat. After chatting with her only did I realized that I’m having depression. Wow.. That’s amazing. This test really can test out my own personality and my trait. I always remember what Pei Li says about not to take this test’s result 100% seriously, however just make it as a reference in life. This test does make myself know myself better and I have a clearer idea on my future career. Furthermore, it also narrow down the scoop of profession I want to go into. From the analysis I got, I’m more into social interests. So I can have more ideas of where should I go after 3 years in this course. I told myself that I would take another test after two years just to have a look on my changes within these two years. By that time, I think that I can have my choices of future career in my mind and my differentiation in choosing a profession will be much more higher than now, ie. only 5% for now.

I love this phrase: ‘Whenever there is a will, there is a way.’ So, I’ll keep on practicing in order to get my dreams come true.

Do you know?

2008-11-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

I did another personality test in PSY110 today. Actually it’s quite true about the group I’m in. There are four big groups, ie. The Peaceful Dove, The Popular Peacock, the Perfect Owl and The Powerful Eagle. Once heard the group’s name already knew how interesting the personality test will be. Well, for those who know me, I guess you all know which group I was in. Haha.. Yes, you are right! I’m in the Popular Peacock. Since I was in primary, I’m get myself very involved in activities that held in school or outside the school. So, I guess this test really point out my real behavioral style. For those who create this test, I salute you! A human’s intelligence is really unpredictable. And for such test, they need to do research and then sum up everything till get the similarity and difference for each group. I beg you agree with what I said.

During the 2 hours in PSY110, we were given a task to draw out our dream university. From this activity, I can see that my course mates are all very creative in drawing and in words. We all are considered genius as we can finish the task, draw out those nice picture and presented it in limited time. Applause across for the Bachelor of Psychology student (a.k.a. Bpsy students). Clap.. Clap.. Clap.. You guys are really amazing!!!

Well, this is the third time I wrote on my blog and I found out that I’m getting more and more likely to love to post out something here as a remembrance of what I did for the whole course. Thanks for Pei Li for asking us to do this as part of our assignment. If it’s not part of the assignments, I’m sure that I definitely will not do it myself. I knew that I’m the lazy type. I really feel grateful for having this course and this assignment. Haha..

In the afternoon, me, Kai Jia, Wai Hin, Zack and Yee Yan (my gang) went for Vienna Test. This test is cool. There are divided three parts in this test. I have to do 440 questions in the final part. One of them did till fall asleep. Haha.. Well, although it takes me 2 hours and 30 minutes to do that but I think it’s worth to be because from this test, I’ll definitely know myself much more better. We’ll be going for counseling on our test result. I’m looking forward for the counseling, as it’ll help me to develop my personality and behaviors better.

This is the third week I start my course, so far so good. I’m sure that I did not choose the wrong course because psychology really provide me a lot of space for critical thinking and not only get spoon-feed by the teachers. This is the exact way for us to grow. We need to practice before we join the working world. I’m very sure that these are our strength in the job world in future. Many of the employment will hire a psychology-based student because we have been trained up to be independent throughout the whole course. And I think that’s why GE loved our graduates so much. Well, looking forward for the next lecture. Do not know are we going to test next week. Just wait and see.

An extraordinary day^^

2008-09-20T04:00:00.000-07:00

Early in the morning, Ms Yeo gave us a key of success. It’s a secret code that can open the door of succeed. Actually I heard about this method of study before during my high school, but I do not link them with a creative way. This is one of the way for our learning. For my case, I do need to study in this kind of environment and I’ve chosen the right place, ie HELP University College. As I mentioned last week, I’m a temporary primary school teacher before I joined this program. Ms Yeo’s creative learning skills are what I’m looking for to teach the kids to love more on the subjects.

Oh yes, let’s go back to the secret code again. It’s very simple. If you were to open this door of succeed, u just need to bear in mind that this digits, they are 10, 24 and 7. I guess most of us will surely feel weird on these digits. It’s quite a weird combination but actually it’s not well, 10 minutes to review what the lecturer taught after the class, revise in 24 hours can make you understand and memorize well, and get back to the notes in one week time, ie 7days to refresh what had been taught by the lecturer last week. So, these codes are really very essential on study no matter in what field of study we are. Thank you Ms Yeo for sharing this with us.

We did a self-assessment on our personality and behaviors during the lecture. It’s a very fun and interesting one. I’m agree and satisfy with the assessment because it really true on me. After completing this assessment, I have a clearer idea and option on what I can specialize in future. I can see that my potential is more to social work and that’s what I wanted to be in future. This is so cool. At least I knew that what can I really do and I’ll look into those careers in my group, ie the ‘S’ group in details.

Besides that, one of our course mate, Jeevi read out her Career Journal as a reference for us. She wrote it very well. I can get some hints and ideas from her reading. I can say that I get more guideline on how to complete this career journal after she read out hers. Thank you Jeevi for sharing with us. That day, we take the same bus and I manage to talk to her. She told me that this is the first time she stands in front of the crowd. She was very scared and worried the time she went on stage. Well, I told her that she did very well as this was her first time for public speaking. We chitchat a lot on our way to Bangsar LRT.

Once I reached home, I switch on my computer and go to read Jeevi’s blog. She’s really very efficient, I can read her new post around 6p.m. I can say that she’s a hardworking girl too. Well, Jeevi’ll be my role modal because of her good personality and learning attitudes. I manage to do mine as well after that. As the sayings goes by, ‘ How you do anything is how you do everything’. We must do the things correctly so that we can get the correct outcome. It’s true. So, as a conclusion, if we have a passion to do something, just go ahead and we will succeed one day.

My 1st day of psycho journey (for assignment)

2008-09-19T02:23:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my blog.
Firstly, I would like to thank my sister for helping me create this nice blog..
Thank you, Regent! (my sister)

Well, today is the first day I started my lecture in HELP psychology. I find this course very interesting. That's what I want. I'll be looking forward for the following lectures with nice and challenging lecturers.

In my opinion, Psychology is a word that normally people will deal with the word ‘crazy’. I think most of the time in Malaysia, they do not really get used to see a psychologist when they or their loves one having problems in their life. Before I started this course, whenever I heard my friends who are studying psychology, I’ll also have the same thinking, ie. These people are mad. Well, now, it’s turn for my other peers to have such perspective on me. Even my family members and relatives also not really agreed that I take up this course. They still can’t see the career in future after I’ve done my degree.

I’ll take up this psychology course basically is because of my teaching experience in a primary school. I need to collect money for my first year tuition fees therefore I’ve been working as a temporary primary teacher for the last one and a half year. I’m very frustrated with some kids during that period. I met with all kind of kids in this school. Those kids with Hypertension Deficit, violent, bullying others, do not like to talk, slow in learning etc, are the one who lead me into this course. I wanted to help them very much but I knew that I couldn’t do so with my little knowledge. That’s why I wanted to study psychology and wish that I could help out them one day. These kids are really very nice to you sometimes when they are ‘normal’, but when they are not in their mood, they’ll do things that unexpected by you. I can say that teaching is really a challenging work as what I had experienced. I do salute with all the teachers around the world for their passion to take up this career and to build up our new generation.

Well, although I’m the oldest in my group but I still manage to mingle with them. Maybe it’s partly because of my chubby face. I do not look like 21 years old but look like 16 years old. None of my group member noticed my age till they asked about the year I was born. Well, age is not a point to stop me from studying this course. Although most of my friends who studied this course have graduated but I still think that there’s not too late if I have the passion in studying this course. I wanted to make this course part of my life and applied what I had learn throughout this course to help out the needy one.

Today is my first day into university college life. Actually I’m very excited for that because I’ve been waited for this day to come for one and a half year ago. Now, let me introduce one of my lecturers. She is Ms Yeo Pei Li. She is teaching PSY110, Career Guidance. She is nice because she organized an interesting ice breaking once the class started. I get to know more of my course mate through that session. I can make use of this method when I was to organize a camp or any motivation talk in future.

We have been told and assigned two assignments for the first day of lecture. That’s university life, what my friends always complain to me every time I chat with them. Well, although I do not really know what to do but I’ll figure it out as soon as possible so that I’ll not do the last minute work. I'll take this good opportunity to change myself into a better quality of person. This is how we are going to prepare ourselves to become a good and professional psychologist.

I hope that I can fully make use of what the assignments and examinations and bring all this into my career in future. Thank you for my daddy for sending me all the way from Cheras to HELP every morning. Although he mentioned that I’m psycho since the day I registered this course but I can feel the supports from him. I’ll really work hard on this course so that I really get what I wish to be in future. I like the sayings that Ms Yeo put it on the slideshow, ‘We live half of our life at work’ and ‘ Choose a job you love – you will never have to work anymore’. I totally agree with both statements. Most of the people nowadays spend half of their life working for their living expenses. It is a must for all of us to work, but if we are working on what we loved, it means that we do not need to suffer too much on the work pressure.

the 1st day of 2nd week lecture

2008-09-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

today.. i studied Research Methodology.. it's something like research work... n the lecturer is Dr Albert Lieu..
v did lots of discussion throughout the 3 hours lecture..
what i find it interesting is by doing research on something, we can find out that most of the time we are having inaccurate observation. we are being missed-lead by the environment till we cant make the correct observation. now only i knew that common cause of deaths in Malaysia is asthma but not motor-vehicles accidents. that's quite a contras on our daily thought. don't you agree with me?
well, besides that, i also find out that although psychology is a hard course to study but as long as u r interested in that and put in more effort on that.. i guess i can overcome all the challenges..
that's all for today..
looking forward to the next lecture

:) cute pika,alice

the 1st and 2nd lecture day

2008-09-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

welcome to my blog..
Firstly, i would like to thank my sister for helping me create this nice blog..
Thank you, Regent! (my sis)

well, today is the second day i start my lecture in HELP psychology. i find this course very interesting.. that's what i want.. i'll be looking forward for the following lectures with nice and sweet lecturers..

what I have learned on the 1st day of class (ie. PSY110 n PSY 111) ?
1stly, let me introduce my lecturer, she is Ms Yeo Pei Li. she is teaching PSY110,Career Guidance.. She is nice because she organized an interesting ice-breaking once the class started. i get to know more of my course mate through that session. I can make use of this method when i was to organise a camp or a talk in future.

besides that, i'm also having PSY111 , Introduction to Psychology by Dr Hera Lukman. She's nice,too. She told us that most of the time we have to read up for our own because she'll not spoon-speed us like what we have in primary n secondary school.. so, it means that i have to read up more n prepared for her lecture... um... actually it's good and that what i wished to practise last time when schooling.. hehe... so i'll take this good opportunity to change myself into a better person in life..

importance key words are here: WE ARE GOIN TO HAVE 3 ASSIGNMENTS DURING THE 1ST LECTURE!! THAT'S CRAZY... but i knew that's the route to prepare for us to be a good psychologist.. so, i'll take it and do it well!!! gambate alice...go go alice!!

well, for the second day of lecture, it's kinda stressful... stressful not in the sense during lecturing but is the lecturer itself..
there is a class at 9:00a.m.-10:00a.m. and the next class is at 4:00p.m.
in between, there are 5 hours time for the next lecture... guess what i did within that 5 hours? haha... you'll never know that because that's not my style... i went to the library for 5 hours!!! cool... this is the 1st time i been to the library for such a long hour!!! That's crazy man!!! i also salute myself for staying in the library for such a long duration!! haha... i didn'e join my gang 22 MV so i decided 2 get a place to sit down and spend the time there quietly and there it is... HELP's library at Wisma Help, Level 1. It will be my 3rd home.. 1st is my own home, 2nd is the lecture hall and library will be my third home.. haha.. so rich la me.. got 3 homes in my 20th... lolz.. by the way, i've fallen asleep about 3 time within that 5 hours because i'm not used to study in such environment.. lol.. but i guess soon i'll used to it as it is listed in my 3rd home.. gamabte alice!!!
now.. came to the climax of the day.. i've waited for 5 hours in the library just to wait for the next lecture, MC100. what happened is that... the class dismissed at 4:45p.m. that's crazy... haiz.. i've no good impression for the lecturer that taught me MC100 due to the 1st lecture dismissed so early.. hais.. anyway.. still have to get use to it... go go alice!!!

hehe.... that's all for this 2 days...
today is a holiday.. haha.. actually no lecture... umm...

to be continue...
my psycho journey................................................................................ part 1 end here