Learn to treat things happen around as they r normal ^^

raining early in the morning..

so mood oso x tat good lo.. lolz.. emo..

get up aroung 6:45am.. tot 1 2 help dad fill in medicine.. who knows.. he already go out le.. hav 2 cal him 2 come bec take the medicine.. haiz.. my careless.. shud keep tat ytd.. but.. was too tired le.. after fetch sis from her skol, once reach home, i straight away sleep le..

erm.. aft tat, teach tuition til 10:45am..

haiz.. need 2 prepare exam papers.. the previous 1 that i have donw have totally rejected by the teacher who r checking it.. sob.. need 2 re-do all over again.. nvm la.. i oso dun wish my kids fail it.. lol.. so will make it easier than the rejected version..

dunno y heart feel weird weird de.. like sth blocking.. seems like lots of problem that i can't solve..

1. study - money

2. family

3. friendship

4. relationship - so far so good ^^

5. period.. coming soon

hmph.. luckily the 1st problem is already settle half way. thanks for those who lending me a hand for that... thanks yc ^^ i truly appreciate wat u have done to me.. thank you..

one of my fren gave me a formula 2 summarise my feeling:

period + moon gravity + emotion..... = bad mood

he said: if minus out the "emotion" then u will be happy as usual again.

mayb i really think too much as wat ts said.. haiz.. but.. human being will think non-stop.. unless the second he/she died..

isn't it true? i dunno..

went to celebrate my cousin's 21st burfday ytd.. she got lots of presents.. so envy her.. haha.. cos i also love receiving presents instead of MONEY.. i always got money instead of presents.. so.. feel that if i receive so mnay presents.. i'll surely b very happy... n headache too.. cos dunno wer shud i put those presents.. i have few boxes of present that gave by my students and friends last time.. haha.. but.. i stil love to receive presents.. i guess is normal for every1.. psychologically.. am i right?

burfday, wedding, etc is an event that gather ppl.. v can meet out long lost friends.. relatives that only met once a year ( during CNY) lol.. etc.. ytd one of my relative ask me.. when is my turn.. haha.. i was shocked wif her words.. cos.. at 1st i tot she asked wen is my turn 2 get married.. haha.. she asked when i'll celebrate my 21st... lolz.. erm.. i din celebrate la actually.. jz have dinner with my family. I oso planned to celebrate b4.. but.. due to lots of circumstaces, i didn't do so.. erm.. quite sad oso.. but.. nvm la.. over le.. i m now 22.. so.. no matter got celebrate or not.. life stil hav 2 go on.. lolz.. no big deal!!

my anniversary wif ts'll coming soon.. 23 more days to go.. as he's starting his uni life soon, i guess we'll x celebrate it so soon.. anyway, that hour will b our bz hour.. so.. can't go 2 find each others so soon.. i guess.. unless.. haha.. x unless.. shud b lidat la..

erm.. okie la.. start 2 do my work la.. go go gambate!!

^^ hav a nice day everyone!!

unusual day..

Dear blog..

erm.. recently feel like writing out my feeling.. so.. i write lo...

haiz.. got a feel n weird feeling.. realised that some1 din really 1 2 talk 2 me.. dunno y.. haiz.. n dunno how 2 find out.. so.. jz wait lo.. haiz.. sad case..

darling is moving 2 new room.. abu neh neh landlord.. hopefully this 3 years everthing will b fine la.. cos.. seriously.. i dun trust indian.. mayb phorbia.. but since my darlnig said the landlord is nice.. so.. i have nth 2 say oso la.. cos he has already very fan for this.. n y et.. i can't help out anything.. haiz.. wat a useless gf i m .. haiz..

new sem will b my 2nd year le.. that's when the HGPA will b count.. haiz.. so worry la.. din get 1st class oso no confident to get 2nd upper.. cos the standard is kinda high in HELP.. for my level la.. but.. i'll try my best to do my best!!! jiayou ba.. oso .. jiayou ba my darling.. wish u all the best in ur new environment!!!

erm.. was chatting wif my ex colleague.. he said.. if according to lunar calendar, gal is more emo during full moon.. err.. seriously this was my 1st time heard.. but.. mayb lo.. haha.. mayb period cuming soon oso la.. lol.. cos pimples r out le.. lolz.. make sense? swt.. wat m i toking abt? haha..

hehe.. dunno darling gto read my blog or not leh? guess dun hav la.. cos i oso send him mail everyday.. like blog oso.. haha.. but.. i really wish he got read sometimes.. sometimes oso dun wish he read.. wen i m really emo n got talk abt his bads :p haha.. seldom la.. mayb got la.. dun angry oh if u saw this, ts..

well well well... time 2 prepare exam paper la.. fast fast fin n dun need 2 bother abt it anymore la.. wat la.. as a replacement teacher oso need 2 prepare exam paper.. haiz.. but.. haha.. working here is more relax than the previous skol.. cos.. i dun need 2 bring bac book to mark.. lolz.. time more free.. lol.. too bad.. wen think of skol reopen need 2 skip 2 weeks class for teach.. haiz.. feel so bad.. but wat 2 do? need 2 earn money for my next sem's tuition fees.. haiz.. hopefully can catch up la.. wif all my fren's help.. headache.. stil dunno how much i'll get for my salary.. haiz.. so cham...

okie la.. to be continue next time..

bye bye..

Life is hard.. but... stil have to go on..

suddenly feel like posting something on my blog...

i wonder why on earth the people need to suffer so hard to live on..

till now.. i haven get an exact answer cause i m stil suffering from something which is not under my control..

haiz.. wat a pitiful life.. i wish i could do my best to make my life more live more lively and cheerish with the efforts i have put in..

erm.. i realised that i oni blog all my unhappy moments... i seldom blog on my happy life..

mayb i thinki blog is one of the way for me to release my stress and unhappiness.. wel, i do hav happy events goin on my life...

i was sick for few days.. tot myself goin to die soon cos.. H1N1.. but... i m not having tat.. y m i so happy abt getting ill? haha.. cos it's the oni way that i can slim down.. i dunno y n how can i slim down besides that.. i've tried to exercise but seems the effect is not tat clearly seen.. however, wen ni sick for few days, i can c myself slim down very fast.. ehem... lolz.. of cos after increase weight oso faster than b4.. lol.. hopefully this time i can control myself abit.. cos i dun wish 2 disappoint some1 who always meet me but did realised that i have pun in effort to slim down.. how sad is this case u know..

i was thinking shud i join the community services this time cos i feel myself din give much commitment to my group as i m working and the timing is not right for me to meet them up and help out in any activities.. haiz... if i join.. i feel bad.. cos din help out much stil can join.. if i din join.. i oso feel bad cos my leader has work out so many things for me.. din blame me din help out.. give me chances to go.. erm.. dunno la.. i oso dunno wat shud i do?

1 of my fren did propose a pose for me in a club.. i hav reject it due to i scared i can't give much commitment for that.. as usual.. i'll have tons of excuses when activities are on.. therefore, i dun feel like i can take up the responsibility to do the best for the pose that are proposed by my fren.. so.. reject and b a volunteer is the best choice i can think of.. it wouldn't hurt me or others..

my relationship.. ermm.. seems like normal.. stable.. n.. happy.. altho i cant help much in his life.. but.. sooner.. i wish i can do sth for him.. at least he can feels that how much i love him.. den tat's enuf..

well, as i said in my title.. life is hard.. but... i still have to go on... this is LIFE..

night ^^